When I look back at my life it is so surreal to me now, most of it feels like I’m talking about someone I knew a long time ago or a lifetime ago. It just feels so far away, I no longer feel emotionally attached or burdened by it. For a longtime I felt broken and I think the only thing that held me together was my habits and crutches. Half the time I was mad at God for my life and the other half of the time I didn’t believe he existed.

I had heard about God’s healing grace but I never thought much of it, it kinda sounded like a cliché or something people just say.  At the time I didn’t know it but as I look back at my journey I see the correlation between the time I finally opened my heart to Jesus and when the pieces of my brokenness began to heal and he started to transform me into the person he has designed me to be.

He heals the brokenhearted and binds up their wounds. Psalm 147:3

I used to think that would be a boring person who follows all the rules and feels guilty about everything.

But what God wants for my life is really greater than anything I could have ever imagined.

And while I still have a long way to go I can honestly say I have a sense of peace and contentment that I never knew without him. I’m starting to feel freedom from the guilt that used to tear me down. I feel an excitement and boldness within me to follow him, show others his Love and to make a difference in his name. I look at my life here with all the blessings and hardships and I am overfilled with gratefulness.  I still have bad days and if I have been far from Him the day doesn’t look pretty. I may raise my voice, get upset about the little things or just feel defeated. But if I have prayed and spent time reading his word, there is an unshakable Joy that gets me through the day. Through him I am able to Love more and give Grace more and have Peace.

Philippians 4:13 says “I can do all things in Christ who gives me strength”

I can’t imagine my life without Jesus as my Lord and Savior!